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Name: Ben
Country: United Kingdom
Birthday: 9/14/1980
Gender: Male
Interests: eating,sleeping,rocky,ps2 aaaaaaaand Nikki ooh and comics,films and drawing
Expertise: Qualified Baker,doing my own make up
Occupation: Other
Industry: Retail
Message: message me
Member Since:
6/5/2003
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| Ok i wrote this allong time ago so some of you might of already read it but here it is anyway
The Window
The moon light shone through the cracked window shards of light cut deep through he murkyness of the room.
The smell of dampness was rich and seeemed to engulf the figure standing at the window.
The moonlight gave a cool brightness to the room and the cobwebs over the decanters in the cabinet seemed to glow and dance with life as the ants scrawled over the cut glass.
Days nights may have passed but the figure still stood there swaying slightly in the cool nighttime breeze looking down watching the world go by.Like some benevolent force always watching always silent all ways there.
Moonbeams show his reflection on a shard of glass his eyes deep and thoughtful all knowing but never changing even to blink. Sadness and pain are all you can see in the lines of his forehead these lines of life were once youthfull and innocent now cracked and unwanted just there as maps of what has been and been done and will never be again.
Lines that can be read like a book not all are of sadness and pain but some are of happiness of children a wife ,
for a figure with no emotion he stands there as a testament of humanity forgotten lost and abandoned.
Never learning always understanding forever watching out the window.
Cars, buses pass on the street below life continues not caring for those so recently lost, The sound of laughter fill the room but yet he remains swaying and with the sunlight now dancing across his face his eyes are bloodshot and staring his body is bloated tearing through his clothes but at least he holds his head up high never looking down with his shoulders back keeping a brave face on for all the world to see but yet like most things it is just a facade an act a lie a falsehood too keep the ones that hurt him away forever and ever.
Through the window he watches life go by never speaking but his face reflects all the emotion he has left .
A man who has nothing is sad men indeed for he has lost it all even the most precious thing he ever owned he gave away. His wife ran off with another man and took his children his wedding ring on the floor by his feet.
Nothing now can be lost innocence forgotten life itself gone from his body never to be returned just like the chair beside him on the floor laying on its side never to be picked up again and the toaster lead never to be undone from his neck again.
But still he sways in front of the window watching and waiting forever silent his eyes always staring. .... | | |
| Ok now home after a busy weekend our first show in the east end well what can i say i ache i managed to cut my left nipple on Em's corset it is noe been erect for nearly 20 hours give or take a few.
Apparently we sold 170 tickets did not look like it too me i only thought there was about 90 odd people looking back at me but then again two people were having sex in the back row i suppose the the other 78 people were not interesting enough lol | | |
| Hi been a while but not really had much to say
since i last put finger to key ive read a book on psycology ??/ spelt right i think and found it very intersting indeed..
To breifly explain this book helps you to notice body language and also the way people form there sentances and by use of metaphors you can get a ghreat deal of information about how they think what is on there mind and then use it to get them to do things they dont particulary want to do .
a bit like Derren Brown does kinda cool i thought and ive been using my new found skills at work.Which has helped a great deal although it does make you a bit suspicious of everyone.However i thought id talk to my new bakery manager Tony Pollard about it only to find that it is a field of study he finds facinating so i got brownie nose points for that.
Aside from the lie detector book i read i aint done much else apart from working and trying to keep nikki happy.so i best go now as ive gotta start cooking dinner so we eat at a reasonable time rather than at 10 tonight
ben | | |
| ok so ive made a a start on the cider and enjoyed it very muchly...........
not much to report actually apart from i watched italian job today the other day i got a call from a guy who i was at school with alex but we called him alf so im gonna meet up with him soon wich will be nice aint seen him for over a year last time i saw him i was going to johnny Austins superhero party first time i met ed and amy infact oooh i nearly forgot the landlord phoned me the other day too and told me off for not doing the garden (itr has been a month since we last did it) needless to say i was a bit fucked off so yesterday i got the lawn mower out and made a start then the bastard thing blew up smoke poured out of the top i threw it on to the drive unplugged it and ran to get a bucket of water luckly it had burst in to flames so i ended up cutting the rest of the grass with a pair of shears to like forever
thats all speak soon ben | | |
| Christ im tired so tired in fact i cant fall asleep when i want to only when i dont zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
ok last day today at work last onr in a straight run of 8 days doing 10 to 12hrs per day so now i have two days off 3ltrs of cider to drink so in approximatly 3 hours i will be drinking heavily ill tell you more tommorrow
ben aka (ace).....ill explain later | | |
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